Dark feelings

Beaming as it is
He got her from start
A shot of pleasure in words
Sweet delights lost
In false hopes and day dreams

Day dreams she hoped to forget
In a daze of romantic feelings
In the arms of a willing nobody
A flash of indignity
Her prospect for his need

His need always coming first
She knew from start to be defeated
No turning back possible
As he selfishly blew her heart into million pieces

These precious pieces she cared for
Remainings of a past only she could understand
Delving into them when needed
To renew her vow of darkness

Somber darker needs she had to revive
To be able to create all new feelings
Despair her best guide to the unknown
Dealing with her past and present loves